Many questions turn to a full-stop.

I see many people on the road side. In every signal at Chennai I see people from the age of 6 to 70 begging outside the Car windows. These people are part of my life. Every day I used to see one such people.



Two months back there was continuous rain in Chennai, I was thought about these people where they sleep. Since the sky is the ceiling for this people, how they can sleep. Where they will stay and sleep during the continuous raining days.



Most of us believe in GOD. If these people believe in God then what is their prayer to the lord. What is the biggest thing they want in a day? Is it a food? Is it a money? Or something else.
Or these people cannot believe in GOD due to their current condition? What is going into their minds daily? Is their thought focus on only the material things? Does they think differently? At the end of the day what makes them to go to sleep and waiting for the Sun Rise? If they get good money on a particular day how they celebrate? Will they share to all? What kind of plan they have to use this money?
Is any day they thought about the death? For whom they are living? What is motivating them to live ?If they does not get the food for the day, how they are solving the big problem called HUNGRY? How many times they tried for suicide? Why they are not trying to get a job even though they have a good physique.

There are many old women they came out of the house or sent out of the house . If they are sick how they handle the situation ? Will they go to Hospital? They also begging in the road. Suppose when they begging if they meet his/her son or daughter what they feel? Will they speak to their children? If they meet their relatives or known persons on the road what kind of feeling they have? Or they ran away.



Very small children also begging in the road without knowing what they are doing? Most of these kinds of children are acting. They used to be happy and when they beg they used to change their face into very sad. Then only they will get the money. How brave their parents are? Sending their own children for begging? Or these children do not have parents. When they grow what kind of mentality they have? What kind of feeling they have when they look at the normal children?

One Sunday I went to beach with my wife. A small boy not more than 10 years old begged to us for money and he said he is working, his figure is not poor, he looks healthy and though he is working what the need for him to beg? Also one more small boy his age may be 7 or 8 beating a drum and asking for money , he never stopped beating until he got a money .if we ask him anything he didn’t speak he didn’t hear to what we speak . He was continuously beating the drum. What makes the heart of that little boy stubborn?



There is a strong thought in these young minds. People will give money if we ask. If they will not give money trouble them until to get the money. They are growing with this thought and one day they will become a criminal.

We are seeing many such people in our life begging and even with new born babies … and still we are the passer-by.
What we can do to stop these children and save our society?

I know it is easy to ask question but difficult to answer. So Every questions turns to a full-stop.

Question mark symbol(?) having a full stop(.) in the end.

Give a strong message to these people that the world around them is stop(.) giving.

Pains……

I need a pain always in my life. One thing in the world which no one desires to have is a Pain. Recently I was on the pain of death. Had a worst ever teeth pain. Which was killing me. To change the focus out of the pain, I started to think the positives of the pain. Sharing my wonderful pains…..

Hugged so tightly like anaconda trodden the body of a men. Feel the pain of the hug from the person whom I loved out of the world. I want this kind of pain.

Stretch my body , do the exercise until my muscle hurts. Run.. run… run… until my body pains and feel what the pain brings to my life.

Child birth is a very important stage in the life of a woman. Woman has two life’s in her hand while carrying the child. Yes child birth is the most difficult pain but after giving the birth the women turn in to a Mother that make that lady next to God.




Lift a heavy weight basket with full of vegetables. Lifting a basket is paining. But enjoying the pain in hand because going to put the basket on top of the old lady’s head who is selling vegetables in the road. I want this kind of pains.

Laugh till I cry. Laugh until my head comes off. Laugh till I choke. Laugh until my stomach hurts. Laugh out loud till the world ends. Choose any one of the above type of pain. Feel the pain of the laugh . I want this pain often.

Lift the baby and have the baby in my hand for more than some time. Yes it is paining. But seeing the baby activities and speaking with the baby cannot be replaced by any wealth of the world. I want this pain.

Taking care of the old people, mentally challenged people and babies is a pain. Because they do not know what they are doing. But this pain will turn into happy when I see the smile on their faces.

Sometimes working is a pain. People works as labors are working with full of body pain in roads and buildings. But they keep a nice thought in the heart that this pain is for their family. I like these kind of pains.

Parents sometimes very strict to their children by scarifies many things. It is a pain for the parents to correct their child in good way.

No pain, no gain. One of the famous proverb telling me to work hard to improve. without pain, I cannot get the gain which is true in my life all times.

Share someone’s pain is really the pain I want to do more. To understand someone’s emotional discomfort and sympathies someone’s pain will give some sort of relief to that person.

Best practical teacher in my life is pain. Pain tells me it is time to change . some pains teach me a lesson how to live the life .Enjoy these kind of pains when it comes to my life. True happiness is lies on these kind of pains. Thank God for teaching me the lesson of the pain through my teeth pain.

Upgrade Project May…June…& July 15

The 75 days of my life started from May 1st to July 14 had changed me from heaven V0.1 to heaven V0.2. Two different paradigm of life. The transition from version 0.1 to version 0.2 was never ever experienced before. My Project Mangers(parents) finalized the scope and cost of the project and agreed the project plan. I was in a position that can I continue with the current bugs of V0.1 or can I upgrade to V0.2 and ready face the new bugs.
Decided to upgrade to V0.2. The last week of the month May the world around me knows that Wilson’s Heaven is going to upgraded. All communications and peer reviews happened with the customers. The KT(Knowledge Transfer) started form the first week of the June. Since my project managers was taking care of the entire software engineering process & QMS, I had the simple job of studying the Heaven V0.2.
My mobile was so busy that no one was reachable. The KT was happened through my mobile phones. Though the project allowed to use the separate mobile & card, but I didn’t use it. The day & nights had gone for the study. Meantime some other project formalities happened like booking of the resource & purchasing the resource. The KT was happened in many places like beach, CCD and many parks of Chennai. I was sick because of the day and night KT.
July 15 was the date decided for the upgrade. All software engineering process and resource allocations done in the starting of the July but my studying of V0.2 is still continuing. It is never ending process. If you know all about the new version then life will not be interesting. Communications send by my project mangers regarding the date and time of the upgrade to the people required. I sent some too.
The day has arrived July 15. The upgrade happened at the St’Antonys church, Tuticorin. We used to have these kind of crucial upgrades on Holy places. Now I am in Heaven V0.2. Already some bugs has been identified and debug the same. Still some bugs are there. In this version I have a lot of responsibility about my family. Thinks are new. Upgrade project is not going to an end. It is a long, intricate, intimate dance together and nothing matters more than my own sense of balance . I just need to be able to ride each other's waves. Enjoying the new bugs, very interesting to debug.

Note : I am now doing many software engineering stuffs for GM, so can’t come outside of that.

Misal pav to Idly sambar

There was a time I used to have misal pav in the morning. I more eat Navenna(small hotel near Asian paints Ho) Misal pav. Now I am having only spicy south Indian idly sambar. My life has changed a lot not only from misal pav to idly sambar but many ways

My work timing got changed. Working style changed. Friends group changed. Hangout places changed. Now I can visit home every weekend. But previously not. Mobile bill reduced. (now I m paying one fourth of the amount that I paid earlier) Bollywood becomes Kollywood. But cant see movies on releasing week end. Got new friends, After a long time seen some of my friends. Mobile phone friends & relatives become direct. Life is moving slow not Mumbai’s fast faced life. Having a lot of time these days. Hindi to Tamil (got new north Indian friends. still speaking Hindi ) Playing cricket every weekend . No more auto rickshaw travel. Cosmopolitan city to metropolitan city. Missing Mumbai Night life. Traveling inside the city is pain. Climate was too good but now it is hot. Salla becomes macchi. Staying very close to the famous Marina beach. North India to South India. Finally my Friday nights becomes Saturday nights

Why I m talking about many changes. How suddenly I come in to a new world which completely different from the previous one. All my friends already know what change I am writing about. Some of them may guess this change.

I recently shifted from Mumbai to Chennai.

Thinking what this change brings to me. Yes it is a new life. But really missing Mumbai. Change brings me a new world. Change changed the way I am working. Change changed the way I m living. How life is changing based on our decisions? Why every life cycle have a state which is changing. Why i can be a variable?

Change is a part of my life. After the change who look only to the past will miss the present. In all the events I am comparing my present with the past (I would have been in Mumbai I could watch IPL). Really missing my past life. But missing the present by fully thinking about past. All things change. There is nothing in the whole world which is permanent. Everything flows onward. All things are brought into being with a changing nature.

Change spontaneously occurred in my life, but that’s external and it’s within my control to decide how I respond to it – but again, that’s my choice. How i am responding well to my change. Settle my mind in to new life. Practicing my mind does not think too much about my past. Living in Present.

All z well

Missing misal pav but enjoying idly sambar.

Wake Up Wils!

Getting up in the morning is not an easy task. A tiny thought which is in my un-conscious mind used to wake me up. The name of the thought is Mr. Health Freak. Mr. Health Freak used to wake me up some days. Then the coming days I get up before the mobile alarm rings (un believable.. ! Beautiful Mind). But after some days Mr. Health Freak will go in to a sleep mode. It ll not wake me up. Again in the next week Mr. Health Freak will come & wake me up. This is happening many times. I want to make it consistent. Now i have two choices.(One more if condition)


Power of Dawn
The dawn is a gentle lover. Most people do not consider dawn to be an attractive experience unless they are still up. Dawn contains the most energy of all hours of the day. I go out for walking cum jogging session. These days I can see many people are jogging because of Mumbai Marathon fever. Jog till you tired and walk is my routine.
My Friends
While jogging I see my friends gang in one particular place. My tiny friends are always welcome me with great grin which reminds me of the Win-Win training to have a smile on my face always. They are standing in an order that I can see everybody’s smile at the same time. I say Hi and speak to them about their beauty. I like their costumes very well. Want to have the same costume. My friend’s costumes are designed by the best fashion designer. Some of my friends have color heads some of them do not. Those who does not having heads have attractive body with full of colors. I like to spend time with my friends. But they are on SALE !
Do you want to see my friends? Here they are,






(Nursery Garden in the road side)

Jogging with Jawans
After the Mumbai 26/11 attack, NSG (National Security Guard) also operated from Mumbai. The place where I m doing my morning jogging session is the same for them. Seeing these soldiers make me think about of what I have done for my country? Thinking while jogging is helping to run more. It is nice to jogging with the Jawans . My salute to the brave hearts. “ O lord protect them as they protect us. Bless them and their families for the brave acts they perform for us in our time of need”

Nice sleep (Else condition)
Sleeping after wake up in the early morning will give more pleasure. Sleeping with full cover of bed sheet and fan in full speed at the time of winter cant replaced by any other type of sleep. Sleep until 8 am is in winter time is the else condition. Checking friends sleeping or not, if they sleep tell myself “Why are you got up? Sleep…see Suresh is still sleeping”. My friends also sleeping in the same thought that sleep until others get up. :-) Everybody knows the winter morning sleeps.
Now the choice is mine. Can I go for IF condition (Power of Dawn) or else condition (Nice Sleep).Life is giving me many choices and chances. There are always two choices. One is easy. Another one is hard. It is my choice that shows what I truly am, than my abilities. Heaven on earth is a choice i must make, not a place i must find. Wake up Wils !

Dancing…..with problems

Problem - A page in my life book. There are too many ways to solve the problem. How to solve it? Do I want a permanent solution or a temporary solution?
Since I m in the programming world (speaking to computers) for the last 6 years I used to get so many issues in the application. There are users called over phone and shout why this error is happening in this application. When I dig into solve the problem first thing that came to my mind is let solve this issue and get rid of from the barking user.
Getting this in my mind I will never go for a permanent solution for the issue. I want to solve this issue. Is it permanent or temporary solution, it doesn’t matter for me. I want to come out of this problem. My luck or fortunate it might be a permanent solution for that issue.
Suppose it is not a permanent issue, then the same issue will come again for some other users. I know the way to solve which is a temporary solution. I have to do the same thing again. Doing the same thing again and again is obviously a boring one. If the user is a same kind of barking user then I have to solve immediately. If the user is kind enough to give time to solve the problem, then I have time to find a permanent solution.
When a problem occurs, I want to solve the problem by giving a permanent solution. But it will take time. I have to analyze the issue and find out the root cause. My big boss used to tell me “Do the Root Cause Analysis (RCA)”. Do the RCA and solve the problem. Whatever time it takes find the permanent solution.
I have to stay with problems longer. Problems are opportunities to do better things. They are stepping-stones to greater experience. Fill my life book with a lot of problem pages. At the end of the each problem page I am trying to give a permanent solution.
Problems are my dance partners.

Final Destination

I love going to the movies whenever I can. I used to see English, Tamil & Hindi movies with munching of popcorn's. In big screen I deep dive in to the movie and get in to the characters of the film which cannot feel it in TV.
Recently I saw an English movie final destination 3D. I never had seen a 3D movie before. On fine rainy Sunday I went to see the movie Final Destination with my friends in Fun Republic. We got a 3D specs when we enter in to the movie hall. I felt bit scary because first ever 3D movie which is full of deaths. Also I felt some unexplainable felling that how the 3D movie looks, what is the difference.
The movie started. I was in 3D specs and some doubts in my mind. There was no title at the start. The first seen itself made me scary. There was a race car crash. All parts of the car bumped from the screen towards me. There was no distance between me and the screen in the 3D movie with specs. I can’t take the eyes off, watching very close to my eyes.
Like the previous versions the hero has a premonition of an accident that will cause a death of himself & his friends. How he will save himself & others is the story of the movie. The hero‘s vision comes true & kills his friends. 3D makes the movie more thrilling.
There was some fun incidents happened while seeing the movie. I was covered my eye by hand because some flame came to my eyes in one of the scene. My friend was bending down because parts of the car bumped in to him. Thanks to the 3D technology. It made a different experience.

There are different feelings in my life. Glad,sad,resentment,regret,fear,guilty. Fell all the emotions in my life. Not always glad, sometimes sad. Life is mixer of all the emotional sensation. I thrilled when i saw the movie final destination. Live the life with all emotions sometimes with thrill as well. Horror thriller, Final Destination.