Tuesday, October 26, 2010


I need a pain always in my life. One thing in the world which no one desires to have is a Pain. Recently I was on the pain of death. Had a worst ever teeth pain. Which was killing me. To change the focus out of the pain, I started to think the positives of the pain. Sharing my wonderful pains…..

Hugged so tightly like anaconda trodden the body of a men. Feel the pain of the hug from the person whom I loved out of the world. I want this kind of pain.

Stretch my body , do the exercise until my muscle hurts. Run.. run… run… until my body pains and feel what the pain brings to my life.

Child birth is a very important stage in the life of a woman. Woman has two life’s in her hand while carrying the child. Yes child birth is the most difficult pain but after giving the birth the women turn in to a Mother that make that lady next to God.

Lift a heavy weight basket with full of vegetables. Lifting a basket is paining. But enjoying the pain in hand because going to put the basket on top of the old lady’s head who is selling vegetables in the road. I want this kind of pains.

Laugh till I cry. Laugh until my head comes off. Laugh till I choke. Laugh until my stomach hurts. Laugh out loud till the world ends. Choose any one of the above type of pain. Feel the pain of the laugh . I want this pain often.

Lift the baby and have the baby in my hand for more than some time. Yes it is paining. But seeing the baby activities and speaking with the baby cannot be replaced by any wealth of the world. I want this pain.

Taking care of the old people, mentally challenged people and babies is a pain. Because they do not know what they are doing. But this pain will turn into happy when I see the smile on their faces.

Sometimes working is a pain. People works as labors are working with full of body pain in roads and buildings. But they keep a nice thought in the heart that this pain is for their family. I like these kind of pains.

Parents sometimes very strict to their children by scarifies many things. It is a pain for the parents to correct their child in good way.

No pain, no gain. One of the famous proverb telling me to work hard to improve. without pain, I cannot get the gain which is true in my life all times.

Share someone’s pain is really the pain I want to do more. To understand someone’s emotional discomfort and sympathies someone’s pain will give some sort of relief to that person.

Best practical teacher in my life is pain. Pain tells me it is time to change . some pains teach me a lesson how to live the life .Enjoy these kind of pains when it comes to my life. True happiness is lies on these kind of pains. Thank God for teaching me the lesson of the pain through my teeth pain.

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

Upgrade Project May…June…& July 15

The 75 days of my life started from May 1st to July 14 had changed me from heaven V0.1 to heaven V0.2. Two different paradigm of life. The transition from version 0.1 to version 0.2 was never ever experienced before. My Project Mangers(parents) finalized the scope and cost of the project and agreed the project plan. I was in a position that can I continue with the current bugs of V0.1 or can I upgrade to V0.2 and ready face the new bugs.
Decided to upgrade to V0.2. The last week of the month May the world around me knows that Wilson’s Heaven is going to upgraded. All communications and peer reviews happened with the customers. The KT(Knowledge Transfer) started form the first week of the June. Since my project managers was taking care of the entire software engineering process & QMS, I had the simple job of studying the Heaven V0.2.
My mobile was so busy that no one was reachable. The KT was happened through my mobile phones. Though the project allowed to use the separate mobile & card, but I didn’t use it. The day & nights had gone for the study. Meantime some other project formalities happened like booking of the resource & purchasing the resource. The KT was happened in many places like beach, CCD and many parks of Chennai. I was sick because of the day and night KT.
July 15 was the date decided for the upgrade. All software engineering process and resource allocations done in the starting of the July but my studying of V0.2 is still continuing. It is never ending process. If you know all about the new version then life will not be interesting. Communications send by my project mangers regarding the date and time of the upgrade to the people required. I sent some too.
The day has arrived July 15. The upgrade happened at the St’Antonys church, Tuticorin. We used to have these kind of crucial upgrades on Holy places. Now I am in Heaven V0.2. Already some bugs has been identified and debug the same. Still some bugs are there. In this version I have a lot of responsibility about my family. Thinks are new. Upgrade project is not going to an end. It is a long, intricate, intimate dance together and nothing matters more than my own sense of balance . I just need to be able to ride each other's waves. Enjoying the new bugs, very interesting to debug.

Note : I am now doing many software engineering stuffs for GM, so can’t come outside of that.

Saturday, April 10, 2010

Misal pav to Idly sambar

There was a time I used to have misal pav in the morning. I more eat Navenna(small hotel near Asian paints Ho) Misal pav. Now I am having only spicy south Indian idly sambar. My life has changed a lot not only from misal pav to idly sambar but many ways

My work timing got changed. Working style changed. Friends group changed. Hangout places changed. Now I can visit home every weekend. But previously not. Mobile bill reduced. (now I m paying one fourth of the amount that I paid earlier) Bollywood becomes Kollywood. But cant see movies on releasing week end. Got new friends, After a long time seen some of my friends. Mobile phone friends & relatives become direct. Life is moving slow not Mumbai’s fast faced life. Having a lot of time these days. Hindi to Tamil (got new north Indian friends. still speaking Hindi ) Playing cricket every weekend . No more auto rickshaw travel. Cosmopolitan city to metropolitan city. Missing Mumbai Night life. Traveling inside the city is pain. Climate was too good but now it is hot. Salla becomes macchi. Staying very close to the famous Marina beach. North India to South India. Finally my Friday nights becomes Saturday nights

Why I m talking about many changes. How suddenly I come in to a new world which completely different from the previous one. All my friends already know what change I am writing about. Some of them may guess this change.

I recently shifted from Mumbai to Chennai.

Thinking what this change brings to me. Yes it is a new life. But really missing Mumbai. Change brings me a new world. Change changed the way I am working. Change changed the way I m living. How life is changing based on our decisions? Why every life cycle have a state which is changing. Why i can be a variable?

Change is a part of my life. After the change who look only to the past will miss the present. In all the events I am comparing my present with the past (I would have been in Mumbai I could watch IPL). Really missing my past life. But missing the present by fully thinking about past. All things change. There is nothing in the whole world which is permanent. Everything flows onward. All things are brought into being with a changing nature.

Change spontaneously occurred in my life, but that’s external and it’s within my control to decide how I respond to it – but again, that’s my choice. How i am responding well to my change. Settle my mind in to new life. Practicing my mind does not think too much about my past. Living in Present.

All z well

Missing misal pav but enjoying idly sambar.